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me and my self

ajengmonster — Sun, 26 Apr 2009 11:37:59 +0000

there will always be times when you feel like an alien stole your brain. when you feel insecure and horrible about yourself. to be honest, i’m not feeling well about my self lately. i don’t know how it started. but i know that i do feel terrible.

as i read in an article, there’s nothing wrong about loving your self.

i started to think why in the world do i feel horrible about me? i shouldn’t feel that way. i love me.

so i just blogwalking like usual, and i found this blog. the owner have a list of her favourite movies. then i have an idea about making a list of reasons why i should love my self haha. here we go!

10 reasons why do i have to love my self

wait, it’s raining outside. poor my sister. today is her birthday and she’s having a party tonight. too bad it’s raining

okay, about the list.

1. i love to eat. which is good for me because i know a lot of good place to eat

2. i(used to) love to talk. i just have one reason why i love to talk, because i can’t stop haha.

3. i love to laugh. who doesn’t?

4. i love music. i listen to old songs, new songs, all kind of music(except dangdut and those kind of junk) especially jazz, pop jazz.

5. i always happy. at least that’s what people always thought about me.

6. i’m moody. i can be bad in sec.

7. i(used to) love to be around people. it makes me feel secure.

8. i always love to make a new blog. i don’t know why – -”

9. i love my family. i always do even when i act like i hate my family, i still love them.

10. i love every seconds of my life.

debate

ajengmonster — Sat, 25 Apr 2009 11:16:39 +0000

guess what, we made it to top 10. yeay!

we don’t think that we’re gonna made it at the first time, so we’re kinda shock when the judges said that we made it and we laugh out loud so all the participants we’re looking at us.

that was embarrassing.

we were so bad! i mean so bad! we don’t give any rebattle for the other team arguments. we we’re just sit and talk to each other during the debate. and the worst thing is, that we’re still in grade 10 and the themes of the debate was APBN(we should learn it in grade 11). so yeah, you know how bad we are.

i don’t think that we’re gonna make it in to top 3 or the final tomorrow. well, i’m not surprise if we do.

but guess what,

i just got a call from ado(one of my teammate), he said that we’re made it in to the top 3!! god! it means that we have to go to TVRI tomorrow for the final. thanks god!

i’m shock! this is the happiest moment in my senior high school life. i never win any competitions. so i hope that we’ll gonna win this and go to jakarta next june. amin.

wish us luck!

quote

ajengmonster — Sat, 25 Apr 2009 04:54:54 +0000

I’ve done the stupidest thing. i delete my own writing and feel terrible about it. i shouldn’t delete it in the first place, i know. but an alien stole my brain so i couldn’t think clearly. even my friend said there’s something wrong with me, but i don’t feel like it. uh well, it just a post.

blogwalking is one thing that i love lately. it’s kinda fun reading someone’s post about things that happened in their life. and by blogwalking, i find this amazing quote.

i find this hanging on a blog that i don't even know who's the owner is. but so sorry i took it

i love what it said about life. i absolutely love that kind of quotes. and for you who loves quotes i know the perfect place for that.

i didn’t come to school yesterday. i always hate the fact that i have to go to school everyday just because i’m in student age(does that make sense? Well you know what I mean right?). but i did have a competition yesterday, so i guess it’s alright .

last night, i looked up on my yahoo messenger and found that no one asked me about the competition. it’s sucks until vhe IM me and asked me about it, yeay!

i really wish that me and my teammate(which is better than before), get in to the final so we can go to jakarta. amin.

god, i’m hungry.

my eyes captured something. it said,”potato snack is crunchy and deliciously yet oily for your special time”.

potato snack does sounds good, i’ll have one then.

a resume

ajengmonster — Thu, 23 Apr 2009 13:01:44 +0000

i’m having hard time lately. i’m in a deep trauma, and i have no one to lay my head on. a shoulder to cry on. i need something, someone but i never find it. my friends seems having so much fun but not me. i mean, no one ever listen to me. or maybe i’m the one who’s being a jackass. i don’t know.

uh, well

i really don’t know what’s wrong with me lately. new problems came and i decided not to care about it much. i’ve been busy.

there are some debating to do but i don’t think that i can handle it right now. i really want to debate, but my body keeps me away from those kind of competitions.

for heaven sake! i don’t know why i kinda think that i lost everything that i have. or maybe i don’t, i just finally realized that i have nothing.

well

i really enjoy things of this months, but i have many reason for crying so much lately too. i think i’m happy, on the other side i know that i’m not. it just so confusing huh? but i’ll try my best not to think about it. i mean, it’s good for me not to know that i’m unhappy inside.

i never been this way and i never ever wanted to be this way.

it’s weird thou, i find my self writing this kind of thing on my blog(eventhou it’s new). maybe an alien stole my brain. uh, well, who cares.

but actually, i kinda miss writing like now. but i decided, I will write on my blog once a month. Maybe it’ll be easy to write, when I have mood to write, I will write.

but well,

again, i don’t know.